Sunday, September 16, 2012

When Memory Hurts


Matthew 18:21-25
First Presbyterian Church of Clarksville, AR and Harmony Presbyterian Church
September 16,2012

The Rev. Dr. Robert Wm Lowry

            This week, in the wake of the 11th anniversary of the inhuman attacks on the World Trade Center towers, religious intolerance  and violence reared their ugly heads again in the form of a pitiful film on the internet and mobs rioting across North Africa and the Arabian Peninsula.  These events remind us that anger and fear continue to find great purchase in the world while forgiveness and peace are less often encountered on a human scale.

            For that reason, I depart from the lectionary text for today and invite your attention to the 18th chapter of Matthew’s gospel.  Hear the word of the Lord.


            A few summers ago I was in Europe and as all tourists do, I visited several of those innumerable castles that are there. But after a while one castle starts to look like another, no matter what country you’re in or what period the castle was built.
            There was one in particular, however, that I remember very well. It was the one with the maze.
            Whoever built the castle thought that as a protective device as well as an entertainment he would build a very complicated labyrinth of hedges, a puzzle that has been carefully tended and meticulously groomed all through the centuries. Over time the hedges have grown to about eight or nine feet high, tall enough to prevent you from getting your bearings once inside.
            I thought I could probably knock off that maze in about five minutes, and I said as much to the attendant at the entrance as I went in. He was European, stuffy, and not amused. From his look I suspected he had seen my kind go in that maze and never come out again.
            The first part wasn’t too hard, a left here, a right there. It was going rather well, I thought. Except of course, I kept hitting blind allies. Soon I found I was passing people in both directions who looked vaguely familiar to me.
            I began to get a little concerned after about a half an hour or so when I heard voices on the other side of the hedges that seemed to come and then go.
            It became more and more frustrating the longer I searched. I started to imagine that nightfall would come and I would still be there, trying to make my way by moonlight.
            At last the attendant from the entrance came up to me doing what must have been one of his hourly sweeps of the lost. “Having trouble are we?” he asked trying to keep his face straight. “Just follow me,” he said. “It’s by the narrow way.”
            And sure enough there was a kind of gap in the hedges that served as the narrow door to the last row leading to the exit. And standing sideways you could make it through and be on your way. But for those unaccustomed to mazes, or to risking a slightly different way of solving the puzzle it proved too difficult to resolve.
            It was as I was leaving the maze that I discovered the attendant was a Christian as he paraphrased Jesus, “Don’t feel bad,” he said smugly, “many have tried, few are able.”[i]
            I cannot help but think of those words when I read this text from Matthew’s gospel. 
            Then Peter came to him and said, “how often should I forgive?  As many as seven times?”
            Jesus said to him, “Not seven times, but I tell you, seven times seventy times.”
            Many have tried, few are able.
            Tough stuff.
            Like so many parts of scripture though, a cursory one dimensional reading of the text lets us off the hook to some degree.    
            The king, obviously representing God, has loaned to the servant, that would be us, more than the servant may ever repay. 
            Sounds about right.
            God has given us life, love, beauty, creation, sustenance, hope, salvation, grace, and even the life and death of God’s own son.  There is no way that we can repay that debt.  It is the spiritual equivalent of an insurmountable sum like the debt of the servant.  All we can do is our feeble best in response to God’s great generosity. 
            A cursory reading makes it easy to file the forgiveness demanded under the category of cheap grace and go on about our business to bigger things.  After all, we are not God and none of us could begin to match the grace of God.  l
            By this shallow reading, our calling is to be gracious to one another all the while being comforted that there is no way we can be gracious the way God is gracious to us.
            Cheap grace, costless grace, the gracious equivalent of giving it the old college try could surely fill that bill.
            Except for one thing.  That little math lesson that Jesus inserts in the exchange with Peter. 
            How often must we forgive?  Not once, not twice, not even a dozen times.  We are called to forgive seven times seventy times. 
            Seven times seventy.
            Now if you are like me, you have already figured out that seven times seventy times is four hundred ninety times.  A lot perhaps, but still manageable.  At least there is still an end point when I can forget trying to forgive what I cannot seem or do not want to forgive.
            No such luck, friends.  When Jesus tells Peter, and us that we are called to forgive seven times seventy times, he is painting a picture of forgiveness that goes on and on and on without end.  We are called to forgive not a finite number of times with an end point in mind, but on and on and on like grace-filled energizer bunnies beating the drum of forgiveness well beyond the visible horizon of time.
            Then Peter came to him and said, “how often should I forgive?  As many as seven times?”
            Jesus said to him, “Not seven times, but I tell you, seven times seventy times.”
            Many have tried, few are able.
            It is no wonder that we find it so tough to forgive.  Forgiveness is difficult in our culture.  It flies in the face of almost every one of our contemporary cultural values. 
            The culture values the supremacy of my individual will- forgiveness requires me to reflect God’s.
            The culture values the supremacy of my freedom to live as I please- forgiveness requires me to follow God’s command.
            The culture values power over weakness- it is difficult to extend the hand of forgiveness if you are still holding your sword.
            The culture values being right- forgiveness values being righteous in the eyes of God.
            Forgiveness is difficult in our culture.
            Yet forgiving not once not twice but seven times seventy is what we are called to do.  It is what we are called to be; people who forgive so easily and so often that it is nearly impossible to count how often we forgive.
            Last week we remembered events on a beautiful September morning eleven years ago; events that represented yet another attempt by hate and division to destroy the fabric of the human community. 
            18 men, misguided and mistaken about what truly resides in the heart of God, took the lives of thousands and shook the lives of millions by acts of inexcusable terror.
            Also last week, a misguided bigot made a film with the sole purpose of inciting rage and hurt in the world’s Muslim population.  It worked.  Mobs inflamed by anger and resentment attacked innocent men and women in embassies across North Africa and the Arabian Peninsula destroying property and taking the lives of four in Lybia including the American Ambassador who was, by all accounts, a tireless public servant committed to international respect and peace.
            Inexcusable.
            These events and intentional actions that caused harm and incited violence across the world are inexcusable.  
            But what about unforgiveable?
            How often should I forgive?  As often as seven times?
            Not seven times, but I tell you, seven times seventy times.
            Many have tried, few are able.
            Finding even the smallest corner of our hearts to tuck away a grain of forgiveness for the sort of evil and intolerance that led to the events memorialized and the events that occurred last week feels like a monumental, almost insurmountable, task. 
            For my part, I recall landing in Newark Airport on September 13 the day air traffic resumed after 9/11.  When the airplane banked over northern New Jersey and began to fly down the Hudson toward Newark’s runway, I had a clear view of lower Manhattan out my window.  The skyline looked as though it was missing its two front teeth with the twin towers of the Trade Centers gone and the smoke and ash that still rose from the smoldering rubble looked as if the world was being cooked from the inside out. 
            Forget seven times seventy times, thinking of who and what had led to this madness, one act of forgiveness was going to be a stretch. 
            And to be honest, it still is in some measure.  I still have a difficult time watching or reading a news story without the memory of that morning sneaking in and making the whole thing fresh again; the fear, the shock, the anger.  How could such a thing possibly ever be forgiven?
            As I worked on this sermon, I was reminded of a story recounted by Rabbi Harold Kushner.  He recalls:
A woman in my congregation comes to see me.  She is a single mother, divorced, working to support herself and three young children.  She says to me, “Since my husband walked out on us, every month is a struggle to pay our bills.  I have to tell my kids we have no money to go to the movies, while he’s living it up with his new wife in another state.  How can you tell me to forgive him?”  I answer her, “I’m not asking you to forgive him because what he did was acceptable.  It wasn’t; it was mean and selfish.  I’m asking you to forgive because he doesn’t deserve the power to live in your head and turn you into a bitter angry woman.  I’d like to see him out of your life emotionally as completely as he is physically, but you keep holding on to him.  You’re not hurting him by holding on to that resentment, but you’re hurting yourself.”[ii]
            For we who have, as individuals, as a nation, even as a world walked through the labyrinth of emotions and pain in the years since September 11, 2001 and witnessing the continuing challenge of violence in the world today, clinging to anger and fear has become almost second nature.  Yet in the midst of our remembrance and the rekindling of our anxiety and anger, Christ calls us to leave by the narrow way; by the way of forgiveness. 
            I make no claims that forgiving is easy when memories are so painful.  Nonetheless, like Kushner, I think it is time that we as a community, as a nation deny the culture of hate and evil that prompted those attacks power in our lives. 
            It is time that we as a community, deny the culture of vengeance the opportunity to turn us into unforgiving people. 
            As politicians and pundits, and yes, even pastors take to the national stage and declare that the only reasonable and rational response to hate and anger is more hate and anger, we as a community of Christ must stand against the prevailing cultural winds and say no.  No to hate.  No to violence.  No to intolerance.
            In short, it is time that we who know the whelming joy and grace that comes from being God’s forgiven children begin to experience the joy and grace of being God’s forgiving children.\
            To put it plainly, that is the only true and faithful response according to the word of Jesus Christ; to confront hate and intolerance with love and forgiveness.
            How often should I forgive?  As often as seven times?
            Not seven times, but I tell you, seven times seventy times. 
            Many have tried, few are able, but all are called.
            Sola Deo Gloria!  To God alone be the glory! Amen.


[i] This story, retold in the first person for rhetorical effect, is recalled from a sermon heard many years ago.  I apologize for not giving attribution to the original preacher.  I recall the sermon but not the preacher, often a sign of a good homiletician. 
[ii] As referenced in Feasting on the Word, Year A Volume 4.

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